separated at 48

not separated at birth. not even my mother could do that. but she's been trying to get us apart ever since. and now she has. i don't think it's conscious, i just know it is. she got alana et famille to cape cod and disinvited me. oh did i cry this morning when i heard laura's message that "everyone's talking about how weird it is that you're not here." that does not help me. i have been rejected, abandoned, cut out. i'm 48 and still so prone to be wounded by my mother. and my father. he had a hand in this, too. why is she the enemy when he is equally responsible? if only for abandoning me to her control? so being a twin does not protect me from suffering alone. no it certainly does not.